Monday, January 14, 2008

A New Year

I know January 14th is a little late for a blog entry about the new year, but I've been meaning to write this for a while now.

Once New Years began to approach, Torben and I began to talk more and more about 2008. We know what the first half will look like - we'll be here in Kyiv, I'll be continuing with the SBS, and Torben will either be working with the March 08 DTS or finding other things to fill the time until I am done with SBS in July.
But July is looming. We really don't know what comes next. Staying in Kyiv for a while longer? Going to a different country? Going to America or Denmark for a while? We don't know. We're praying a lot about it, but we haven't heard much from God yet as far as direction. Things are very uncertain.
For a person like me, that is very unpleasant. I'm not a big fan of change and I like having a while to get used to new things. So I've been getting more and more nervous. Torben and I had some pretty intense conversations about our ideas and fears and vision for the future during the week between Christmas and New Years, and I had a general feeling of uneasiness and stress when considering the future.
After a fun New Years Eve, we woke up New Years Day and Torben immediately got this song in his head (It's translated from Danish here)
Future and Hope
Future and Hope
I want to give you future and hope
I do not think thoughts of destruction for you
But thoughts of future and peace and hope
For I am
I am alive
I am listening today
These are my words
I want to give you
Future and Hope

We both knew as soon as he shared that song that it was a promise from God. A reassurance. It will be okay. He's got it covered. And He will give us answers. Maybe not in our time frame, but He will. He's faithful. I've had to remind myself of that over and over again as we keep getting questions about the future. And it's still not a pleasant place to be - this place of uncertainty. But I know we are in His hands.