Passionate

Kinda forgot about my blog for the last couple of months but here I am again!

A few weeks ago, Torben and I went through an "Intro to Marietta Vineyard" course at our church, learning about what the church is about and seeing if we're on the same page with them. It was a good day and good to hear about the core values of the church. At the end of the course, we were writing about our weaknesses and strengths. The first question was "If you had to describe yourself in one word, what would that word be?" I didn't have to think long and quickly wrote down "Passionate". After a few more questions, I got curious and looked over at Torben's paper to see what he wrote. Imagine my surprise and pleasure when I saw that he had also written "Passionate". He assures me that he didn't cheat off of my answer.
We've had several conversations since then about what that means to us. I know in movies or through the conversations I hear at school that most people associate that word with sex. But I think it's much more than that. It's a way of living. Not being satisfied with mediocre anything - wanting to do things 100%. For me, that desire has often turned into an unhealthy perfectionism and God is working on that in me, but I think the desire to live a passionate life is not bad. I love people deeply, I hunger for God passionately, and I want life to be extraordinary.
Fear and self-preservation has often held me back from living passionately. But as I am growing in knowing who I truly am in Christ and knowing how He feels about me, I am learning to step out and live life passionately and to the fullest.

"The brave may not live long, but the cautious never really live." - Princess Diaries :)